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Silence of the grave
Silence surrounds me in my sorrow
Silence because no one wants to hear
Silence because grief is too scary for most
Silence because there are no adequate words
Silence is golden
Silence allows me to redo my point of view
Silence is safe from all the scoldings
Silence is wondering why I keep writing and posting
Silence is a place to die or grow
I didn’t
experience “phases of grief;”
I just felt overwhelming pain. The phases of grief are: shock and denial,
bargaining, anger, depression, and acceptance. I wish I could be like those people who put their grief
somewhere else and never shed a tear. I grieved loudly and often for at least the first year, upsetting many folks that wanted
me to shut up and take some pills. That always seemed like a dishonoring of my daughter
and her life. She was that dear to me. Not grieving
her death would have been to discount that. The stress of
being stoic is immense, and a
killer of those who choose not to grieve.
That was choice number one on the long journey back from destroyed to rebuilt: simply to grieve.
Grieving is not something
we have to learn; it comes with the package, and it is part of the human condition. Evidently, it is an evolutionary mechanism for humans to be able to deal with the pain of grievous loss. We learn to recognize the symptoms
and stages.
The really hard part is to learn how to express our grief in ways that are healing.
Who wants to be sad in such a chirpy culture as ours? Better not to say anything and suffer in silence. But that brings its own problems.
