Breavement

Bereavement is a condition that never clears up

No matter how hard I try, it is always there

The pain

The emptiness

The changed me

The scoldings for not being over it

The loneliness

The shame

The guilt

The tears

The longing

The fear

The rejection

                                                                       Her death is

no

guarantee,

no insurance,

that I

will

not

lose again.

There is no

way

to

protect myself

from

further loss.

That is deeply

frightening.

What do

I

do with

that?

Well,

I guess

I

notice

how precious

today is

&

how deeply